Externe Schizophrenia

[sure]

 We do have a female father and a male mother. Alltogether these are two female people. My father is a heavy drinker in front of the telly. My mother raised me as a sister. (So my grandfather is my father, his daughters/ her sisters/ my aunts are our sisters, too.) The (grand-) father returned form Leningrad with a schizophrenia and spend some time in hospital alltogether with his family. They say, they worked there. The other sister is schizoid herself and fears abuse of (grand-)father, too. Besides, her son/my cousin and nefue is a radical right wing. sure bets she gots an externe schizophrenia!

[NataEames]

That does sound like schizophrenia, every way i look at it.
By any chance: Are you Russian?

[sure]

You know, if I say: "I'm schizoid", I'm proud of it cause the sickness has been developed by my people. But if you say: "You're schizoid!", I feel attacked a lot and bullied. and I don't show reasonable insight.
So, let me say with pride: I suffer under a very old french-german soul-sickness (and not mental-sickness), which the leaders of my nation respectfully name "PSYCHOSIS".
I'm especially sick with love.
So, the leaders nemed it respectfully "A love-psychosis"= A psychosis of love. E.g. - "a simple girl meets an important male personality for a short time and falls in love forever." Ambarassement enough? and I deny marrying 

[NataEames]

"a simple girl meets an important male personality for a short time and falls in love forever." Ambarassement enough? and I deny marrying 

I feel the same way about somebody and i dont want to get married to him because im happy keeping things as they are.
I don't see any phychosis in this, it feels natural

[sure]

forever? Normally these things are thrugh after 2, 3 months... there must be anothr fucker involved.

[NataEames]

haha.
I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years now. And before then, we were friends as children.
I don't want to live without him.

If that is psychosis, then I'm a psycho!

[sure]

No. It's not  psyhosis, when u live with him. 

[NataEames]

i don't live with him yet but I'm sure i will someday.

[sure]

again: all these people watch telly all day and take strong drugs.
they pimped me into a love psychosis. they are psychotic and try to transport it to me.
they just dream about me all day long. infront of the telly or elsewhere (at night), talk about me (instead of themselves) till they indentify so much with me that they think the actuially ARE me.
that's what i mean with externe.