Do I have a personality disorder?

[Protoman2050]

Do you think I have a personality disorder? I was starved of oxygen for over 30 minutes when I was born, which caused the death of the white matter around the ventricles of my brain. I also exhibit Myerson's sign (tapping my forehead between my eyes causes me to blink uncontrollably), which is a sign of frontal lobe injury.

I often appear aloof, cold, and distant, alternately with appearing euphoric and crazy. I am very easily bored.

I enjoy making plans, but tend to have difficulty in following them through.

I enjoy making friends, but I usually end up losing interest in them after a few weeks, and use them mainly as companions for going to events, as I don't like to be physically alone...yet I enjoy my solitude.

Most of my friendships tend to be superficial, as I don't like sharing my feeling with others, because doing that makes me feel violated.

I find it difficult to emotionally connect with people, as I just can't empathize with people, as I either think "She's sad, why would I want to feel like that?", or "He's happy, why can't I have that?".

I also find sympathy difficult to express,  as I always sound cold when I try to to express it.

I often withdraw into my private fantasy world, which is the only place where I can fully connect with others, albeit the constructs of my own mind.

I really have no interest in deep, emotional relationships with others in real life, save for my cats.

I have poor table manners, and I often say things that I really shouldn't, and generally act immature. Usually when I'm in an excited situation.

I often break rules when no-one's around, and I have seriously thought of paying for items, and then calling my bank and saying my card and checkbook were lost, and get reimbursed plus have the items. Though I never manage to actually do this, usually because I lack initiative, not because of any remorseful feelings.

I often feel that my affect is just a charade to make people see and hear what they want to, and to prevent people from being suspicious about me.

Maybe I have SPD, or ASPD, or maybe my frontal lobe damage is causing pseudo-depression and pseudo-psychopathy. My former psychologist said I had PDD-NOS, be we both realized that I had symptoms PDD-NOS lacked, and lacked some of the symptoms of PDD-NOS.

[Patrickmeister]

My comment is that you live in only one world that will not end. Your life. That is to say, you CAN live in a private fantasy world, but that is that, it's only a fantasy world. Also, personal habits or traits are not something that can easy be corrected or advised about, since it is dependent on the person, not a mental disorder. Any person be like any of the traits listed above for any kind of reason. Think about your view on an apple. Tell me what you think of an apple. That will reflect upon the type of person you are.

[Protoman2050]

Well, my brain injury could have caused the personality issues.

An apple is something to be eaten and thrown away.

[Patrickmeister]

Well, i see that you are the type of person that does not view like, and appreciate it to its fullest extent. You are someone that DOES and only DOES, you do not take much joy, in the things that you do.
See, if you did enjoy what you did a lot of the time, your description of an apple would've been similar to
"a juicy fruit that is sweet, and red that people eat."
All humans have brain injury 'could've' given you personality issues, but, whether it is true or not, is it what you DO that matters. the brain injury is simply an excuse for whatever personality issues you may have. You ARE human, and you DO lead a normal life, so, instead of being mad at yourself, just fix your problem.
If you usually do something socially unacceptable, don't.
If you do something good, keep doing it.
You can argue that it isn't YOU, but, our actions and how we are determine our future selves, therefore, if you change, you WILL change, and for good.

[Protoman2050]

So, what am I, a sociopath?

[Patrickmeister]

You are who you are, there isn't a certain title you can put on yourself. Even if you currently are something else, you can act like something you WANT to be, and over time, you become that something you want to become. I can not say that you are anything at all, because I do not know you well enough and because people change...