Hi, sorry not sure where to post this. I notice in the subsections of this forums that people may not have posted for some time so i thought i should place this somewhere that you all seem to come to often.
How on earth is a person supposed to trust and find out whats wrong with them with all the tremendous amount of conflicting opinions and research on things?? One person believes all mental illness stems from biological problems, like organ damage or lack of a vitamin, another is a scientologist, another is Fruedian and believes all current psychological feelings have root in events in the past, another is a die hard brain believer than the brain and brain chemicals are responsible for all "feelings", another believes that the DSM IV is a normal way to see things etc etc etc. Sorry for not being too coherent with my "types" here but im in a rush and want to post this before i have to get moving on.
If you feel "grandiose" it could either be because you are a really passionate, full of life person, or because you are bi polar. If you are really really angry it could be because you have ADHD, been abused, or are pyschotic. And then the docs and therapists try to nail down your individual symptoms and put this puzzle together - thats what i dont understand how can anyone trust that peicing together? might not there always be some psychologist smarter and a step ahead of the one you have who may see that one TINY clue that determines that you are insane and not lacking Vitamin B6! Do you know what i mean?? I say this all in light of my thoughts over the years and my current situation which grows more strange and i dont know if its my inetellect telling my its hard to trust anyones diagnoses and piecings together of me, or if its my "disorder" speaking and i will never have a say again in what the thoughts in my mind are. So then if you go the next step, which i am next week against all my instincts and "beliefs", to a psychiatrist and start on some med, then you are really depending on the truth of this science, what if its wrong?? Ive heard of people going insane taking psychiatric meds, ive heard of peoples lives getting 100% better on meds. What if this chronic sinus infection ive had for months has infected my brain and THATS what im experiencing? will i ever know? why doesnt anyone jump to that conclusion? why does psychology and psychiatry have to be so unknown and unsure? whats a person supposed to depend on and trust? if my "symptoms" hadnt appear to have gotten "worse" over the last months i would never consider trusting my mental life to some stranger with a book of codes, but now that i feel like "this", i have to.
if i had the time and money, which i dont, id pursue every possible course known to mankind in determing the root of what i am experiencing. that to me seems like a logical approach. at least my therapist, who is not per se a Freudian which i am most comfortable with, is gentle and goes a little slower in slapping me with these definitions out of the manual, so i can deal with her, but trust? how?? how do i know that what i feel really ISNT psycholigical and NOT neurological (brain chemicals gone wrong)? how does anyone know?? id like to explain more but im not sure how long to go on and how specifically personal to be. thanks for reading and any comments!
Topic: how do i figure it out? (Read 713 times)
April 01, 2010, 07:57:11 PM