self destruction (so to speak)

[Kevinlb]

Hello all,
i've always been fascinated with psychology.
i've always wanted to somehow get the chance to "dissect" my own personality and see why,what,how,because of what i am what i am.
the way i see it, for me to be able to conquer my goals, i need to conquer/know myself first.
hence, here i am.

Lately, for about a few years now..
i would have a deadline of some sort, and i keep on pushing and postponing it even though i KNOW for a fact the major consequences of not doing that actual thing at that specific time.
i know the consequences, i know what sort of issues i'll be in and yet i don't do it!!
and i get so stressed out about this, and get mad at myself (hope it came out right) for the fact that i've never been like this.
i've always used to be punctual, straight As at school n uni. perfect employee at work (employers' feedback not my own)
right now the only thing that i'm good at is work.. and even at work i try to do things at the last minute. (unlike other things where i simply don't do them)

so Whats wrong with me ? am i trying to deliberately self destruct or what?


Thanks for your feedback...

[sakoz]

Are you familar with "Kinesiology Muscle Testing"? (search web for definition). It's a way to reveal covert/subliminal  believed thoughts.
A person was asked if they want a million dollars, the answer , via, muscle test was 'yes', that answer was congruent with the conscious thought.
Then they were asked if they deserved a million dollars, the muscle test answer was 'no'; two conflicting believed thoughts; which one do you think prevails?
And 'sabotages' the conscious belief.