help me , I feel lifeless

[bluedemon]

Hello


I was sick with depression and social phobia disease

But I have received psychotherapy and medication, and got better for some time

Now I have another problem more difficult than the previous
I feel that I am the walking dead and I am free of the vital
I feel like i am not alive
I do not have the inner enthusiasm to work and I have so far been fired from
Five jobs because of this
when my boss tell me to do something
I do it very slowly and full of mistakes because
I feel I am walking dead and free of life

I feel like something inside me absorb my enthusiasm and my life
The problem is I can not describe what I feel very well

Is there any mental illness that matches these symptoms
Please help me and thank you very much

[robert786]

You should to start morning walk every day.
please be happy and enjoy your life.

[docjp]

I have no idea what kind of "therapy" you had, but it didn't work..... and if you were put on drugs, then that may be the problem you are having.

I gather from your post that you are very angry and lean toward self-punishing behavior.
This combination suggests that you need to forgive either dad or mom, and take responsibility for what your early life was.  And more importantly it is done, gone. finished.

It will be very scary to behave in a positive way.... almost impossible and maintain your hatred of dad or mom, and waiting to be so miserable that one or the other will drop everything and come rescue you.  But I fear this is the scenario you have created for yourself.

Life is what you make it, not what comes to you.  A difficult concept to  embrace, perhaps... but an important view to take.  One can be miserable... but the bummer of this is that nobody cares.  It is ones MIND that causes one to be so low that surely someone will come to your rescue... but that is all delusional thinking... a gift of your MIND.
http://about-psychology.com/5youth.html
Peace

[bluedemon]

Thank You All

that you need to forgive either dad or mom,

how did you know that?!
you are good


Do you think I have low self esteem?

[docjp]

Oddly enough, almost everyone does.... it's just a matter of degree.

The thing I encourage my clients to focus on is a few bits of Truth.
1.  Who one is, at ones Core.... is a Perfect Soul,  And who one "thinks" oneself to be is offered by ones MIND, and the MIND is often wrong.
2.  What one thinks.... is often fed to ones brain by ones MIND, and quite often the purpose of this thinking is to make one feel bad.  So, why comply with ones thinking, if it is not positive?

Peace