I really need some help...advice :(

[kmom80]

I have been really struggling to maintain balanced emotional-well being.  However, after 3 years of dealing with constant depression, anger, and anxiety... I am finally saying *uncle*.  I can't handle this on my own anymore and am really doubting if I ever handled it to begin with.

I have been feeling extremely sad, depressed, anxious and angry.  This has been more prominent over the past year (because the feelings have gotten stronger) but I have been dealing with it for 3 years.

Here is a run down of what I am experiencing:

~Tired.  I am in a constant state of exhaustion -- both mentally and physically
~Anger.  My anger is becoming more intense and it scares me.  Before, I would be mildly annoyed.  But now... I get angry and it gets to the point where I start to break down and cry uncontrollably or just see red and lash out.  I often picture myself throwing objects, kicking and punching walls... anything really.  I don't do it... I stuff the anger inside and eat as a way to pacify myself.  I can be confrontational at the drop of a hat.  I was NEVER this way before.

~Depression.  I am always sad or down in the dumps.  I used to try very hard to be positive about life.  Lately, everything is negative in my eyes.  I try hard to find the bright side... but i'm sitting in this big black hole, unable to get myself out of it.  I am afraid my eyes are going to run out of tears.

~Anxiety.  I do not like going out of the house and I do not like being around people.  I get bouts of anxiety and anger when I have to attend any kind of social function (even if it was my idea).  I always find a way to back out of things or avoid them altogether.  When faced with simple things like grocery shopping or playdates, I find myself needing time to decompress when I get home.    It's to the point where I avoid social interaction at all with the exception of those in my circle of trust (i.e., those I can be myself with and not worry about being rejected for my strong depresso/anger feelings.  Namely... family).  Any friends I had, I pushed away.

I find myself wanting to mentally check out at every turn.  I feel overwhelmed just by simply *getting up* in the morning.  I am not happy.  I feel LOST.  I feel angry.  I don't know why when I have all of these blessings in my life.  I don't know what to do.

If you made it this far... thank you.

[SWM]

Hi Kmom

did you see your GP? what you describe could very well be physical rather than psychological.

[Rubytaylor]

Mind is too strong and has great potentials.If you truly believe that you can overcome feeling down, then you can actually work at healing anxiety and depression. 

Think positively and know that you can make yourself feel better. Often, when people are healing anxiety and depression with their own minds and not with the use of drugs, they will find that it takes baby steps but it can be done. You must change the outlook towards life.

As it is said that winners don't quit and quitters don't win. However your depression is caused, or even if you don't know, try to use your mind when healing anxiety and depression and don't immediately run to the doctor the minute you feel as though you don't want to leave the house that day. Your mind has got a lot of power. You are hardly using 1/3rd.
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[DevilsAdvocate]

I too experience the same symptoms, but it helps me to long link them all together. I have been diagnosed with OCD so the anxiety aspect kind of runs wild for me. I have managed to cope with it by doing the significant rituals and trying to block out the desire to form new ones. Anxiety is something that no one but yourself can control. Tiredness is tricky to deal with. Maybe keep a closer eye on the clock for a while and see how many hours you are sleeping on average per night. I would be interested in knowing that. I found that I was averaging 3 to 6 hours a night. No kidding I felt worn down and "heavy" all day. I strongly believe my anger problems were linked to the depression and anxiety issues. Maybe it will solve itself when the other issues subside? As far as the depression goes, its truly up to you. You could sit around and hope that something happens so you wont feel this way anymore, or you could do something about it. Focus on things that heighten your "feel good" emotions. Working out, having sex, or maybe a bubble bath (if your feeling more depressed that day, maybe the bath tub is a bad place for you) are just a few suggestions. Its amazing how little someone has to do to feel enlightened and better about themselves.

These are all just random ideas... Please reply and keep us all updated with your progression.

[Rubytaylor]

"If you change your thoughts you will change your life".

The mind and how you use it can either destroy your life or empower you to act and take control and attract in your life the things you truly want. If you think negative thoughts and focus in your mind on the things you don't want or don't want to have happen in your life, your life will carry on in the same way and you will attract unwanted things. However, if you change your thoughts, you will change your life and you will emerge from a stressful, depressive, anxious state to one of a brighter and happier future.



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