i realised last night that i was doing something which i usually do not do, i was debating about whether something is true or not.
i think because this subject is so personal to me, this is my life and my work, my illness has made me who i am and i care very much about the people i work with, and so i found myself drawn into this debate.
OM
when i remembered myself last night i realised that what you (OM) believe is true, and if you base a methodology on what you believe and it works and if you can impart what you believe to your patients with the same level of conviction as yourself, then your methodology will be successful.
yes indeed it is personal, no doubt about it.
As to whether of not what I have proposed is true is really only going to be found by the test of time, the natur of Truth being always elusive. However be that as it may, possibly it is true-er than what we have so far and that may be a step forward in the right direction.
Thinking on it today I realised I had forgot to discuss the main reason I tended towards this position on fear.
I found after some deep introspection years ago that it is the metaphysical nature of the mind to worry and worry about every thing that touches it. It is it's nature to dissect, to analyse an to solve problems only because if it does not the problems remain unsolved nor understood to the detriment of the thinker. [ nothing new about any of this but had to find out myself hey]
This is normally even for relatively healthy people a part of our nature we always monitor. [ how much we are worrying about things] but when something unusual touches us , whether that be change of an unusual kind or extremes of a psychic nature [ mind revelations] the worrying can intensify enormously and lead to significant degradation of a persons ability to function. Obsessive Compulsive disorder is one such complaint. Persistent worrying can be addictive and intractable unless treated with appropriate therapy.
Excessive worrying is inevitably the outcome of paranoia or irrational reactions to that which we fear and most of the time it has an ego or self esteem foundation to it. IMO
So psychosis can be generated by the fear of being disbelieved or the fear of losing credibility or the fear of entrapment, conspiracy an worrying about things that others do not concern themselves too much about excessively.
As evidenced by mass hysteria pheno. shown on certain occassions fear is also "contagious" and can generate fear. The fear of fear etc etc...
So yes , I tend to feel that it is something that needs a thorough look at and considerable research before any really strong conviction can be made, but it is worth having a good look at IMO.
With out the coherency to understand what we are aware of. To exist with out order in our thoughts so that we can "live" in our own picture is essentially what this fear of losing our minds is. That one day we shall wake up and all we take for granted will have scrambled into a irrational and chaotic mess and that our lives are over even though we are still living.
As you SWM know this is a dreadful state of mental condition and one all of us fear ever having to go there. YOU have and you have survived and a pat on the back is warranted for doing so and doing so so well and most importantly managing to come back to reality with the maturity and wisdom gained that only suffering can grant you.
Not many people [ only 55% on last count] survive this issue enough to lead reasonably successful lives [ usually heavilly medicated]. If fear based therapies were established in a proper therapeutic environment the percentage of success could be significantly improved upon. Especially if exposure therapy was conducted in a realistic way. It is however a very long process of recovery, and most family and medical professionals have not the resources to devote >10 years to helping someone achieve success. This is a sad truth..
When most people are diagnosed they are usually not informed about the length of time necessary to treat these types of psychoytic conditions using current methods. Telling a patient who has had an onset that he will be sick for at least 10 years if all goes well before getting a glimmer of success is usually a death sentance...It takes time and usually signifcant amounts of time to get into a routine that inspires recovery and most families and patients just don't like that idea at all...so a bandaide called anti-psychotic medication is applied for the quickest fix with no to little therapy applied or given [ theraputic outcomes are historically poor if I am nto mistaken]. And well what that means is good for another thread....