Struggling with reality

[chiatea]

I am typing on this keyboard but i dont know if it is real. I might believe things are real more than i would believe people besides me are real. I definetly dont believe anyone will read this yet i dunno how i cant (i suppose) because then there would be no reply right?

Its difficult to explain but theres a reason i believe this way (maybe).

I'm hoping i get to believing that i am truly sitting and that my fingers are fingers, and that my feet are feet and that i am breathing air right now. But then if i believe i am breathing air that would make air real? I know this sounds crazy but im on meds and if theres anything to do to help me think intelligently then please help.

Thank you.

i might get to believing i breath today but i dunno if it'll be that i believe i breath (air) cuz air is something besides my body and me.

I believe i'm real and that i suffer. Thats all i know for sure right now.

[chiatea]

im here thinking that certain foods hurt my soul when i eat them and then it hit me 'are the foods real Sarah?" Do i even eat? What do i do? Do i even move? Does anyone think this will pass by looking at the way i'm askng myself these questions?