Dreams, and emotions

[andy190s]

Hi well I’m guessing this goes in here?

A little about me I'm 23 male live in the UK

Ok so i met this girl while on holiday in Spain and well we fell for each other, we got back and started seeing each other, to me she was perfect in every way, i loved her but i never told her...i think she just knew!!

So it was September 2010 when it ended.......

I’m still having dreams about her!  At first i used to dream about her probably 5 times a week, and I’d wake up feeling so depressed! gradually the dreams have faded but they are still there, if she was to ask me if i wanted to get back with her i would tell her i just want to forget her! Not that i hate her i just can’t stand the pain losing her has put me through!

So anyway I’m still having dreams about her, the dreams are just me and her doing things like sitting in the park or have a coffee together! What i want to know if anyone can help me is what do these dreams mean? Is there something in my sub-conscience telling me something?

another thing, ever since me and her split up i find it so hard to find a connection with a female, I’ve been in 8 relationships since and I’ve ended every one of them! It’s like I’ve got no feelings! I can’t seem to look at a girl and feel love or anything for her! I’m very distant emotionally from my friends, family and girlfriends i get! Where when i was with the girl off holiday we had a very deep connection.

Ok so why did we split up! we lived 30miles from each other and she said she was afraid i was going to hurt her so she couldn’t be with me, i acted all cool about it as i do (cause i never want to show how hurt i am), then a few month after she text me saying she missed me, and text me again on valentine’s day asked how i am! I know it doesn’t take a genius to work out that she misses me! I also miss her

So can anyone help me in understanding why i am dreaming about her, what they mean and why am i so distant!!!

Thanks you

Andy

Oh and the reason i ask is because last nite i had a dream about her! i was so happy in my dream then i realised i was dreaming and started trying to wake myself up with no avail!!